Being a Master it is not compulsory to share anything with a slave, and that is what i am, La Kajira!!! i am so priveleged to wear my Ubars collar, i am not ashamed to wear such a beautiful piece of jewellery upon my neck. i feel so overwhelmed to know that my Ubar wishes to share with me. How wonderful it feels to feel able to open oneself to that ONE special person, and vice versa. Yeah, okies i am being silly here, but heck, am i not entitled to show how happy i am about having such a wonderful Ubar, the bestest in the whole world? i feel even my Ubar would allow me to be so ins. i think he is trying to outdo me, by writing 16 pages, is Ubar working towards some kind of award for his performance? lol Woo hoo.yippeeeeeeeeeeeee, yay!!!! Got a letter from Ubar this morning. Ubar is different, there is nothing that i could be scared of sharing with him. There has only been one other person that i became close to, and i ran from him, i was scared to commit further. smiles, will have to wait for his reply in letter, though i have a feeling of what Ubar will do and say anyway.

I wonder what Ubar will say about this story and how will he feel about me doing such?. Only time and practice shall see what the future holds. Who knows, i may even get a book published, either with poems or a story. I would also like to get back into writing poetry, though try to move away from love poems for a while and expand my gift in other directions. Have written six short chapters, just as a rough sketch for now and working upon the seventh chapter over this weekend, perhaps the eighth also, who knows.lol. Maybe there is a novelist inside me after all.grins. Perhaps this is the way a story is havent got a clue, as it is very new to me. You may call it a biography of sorts, though set in a story, mentioning no names and putting oneself in more than one character. Over this past week, I have had inspiration to start writing something i have never really thought of doing in the way i have. Nothing is impossible, difficult yes, but not impossible. I really do hope that they follow their dreams, as I for one know, that if you want the dreams hard enough, make them an inspiration and set goals to make them real. I often find myself wondering how my daughters are, what they look like as they are growing up, how their schooling is going, what plans have they for when leaving school. I love and miss them both very much, words cannot begin to describe my feelings for them. I also think and ponder about my eldest daughter, Lisa-marie, as I do many times throughout the years we have been separated. I hope she is well and wish her many blessings throughout her special day, may all her dreams come true. It is the twelfth birthday today of my youngest daughter, Stacey.

Ubar thursday